If their actions don't match their words - DISCARD it all ...

A cloud of saddness today.

I received an email from a friend (we dated for a time and then we decided we'd be better as friends) ... We hadn't been in contact of late because we were both busy with our own lives so what he emailed me with shocked me ...
I knew he had moved into a new place with his girlfriend F, what I didn't know was, was she was pregnant. A few weeks ago she went into premature labour and their little girl died 2 hours later. I bawled my eyes out receiving this email. I know how much he wanted to be a father, I know how much he loves children and any child of his would have been loved so much ... it made me think a lot to and it also made me extremely angry.

There are so many people in this fucking universe who are wasting their lives living in the past. I was one of those people but I got smart. There are so many people I know who continue to live there and blame others for their shitty lives and here is my friend E greiving over a baby who lived for 2 hours, 2 fucking hours and we think WE have problems? I wish people would fucking stop being sad sacks and LIVE.
It makes me so incredibly angry that people have to be such arsefaces, living in fear of the wonderful things in their lives.
Don't fuck up and miss what is right in front of you. It's time to live ... and love like it was your last days or life is going to pass you by. I am so very greatful for everything I have in my life. I don't care about what I don't have anymore because I am rich with what I do have. I have a family, a roof over my head, a job, my health (which improves daily), the ability to go to the gym, the happiness from being my own person. I have my eyes that can see, my hands to type this journal, my ears to hear the music I love, etc etc. I don't need much else ... and that's ok. I am blessed. I am greatful for the experiences I have encountered and the people who have joined me on my journey. I am greatful for living. I am free from the bullshit and I am free from the negative thoughts which used to consume me. I am finally becoming the amazing woman I knew I was, I just never chose to believe ...

I know without a shadow of a doubt that good things are coming my way. Like attracts like and in order to get what you deserve you need to show the universe you are this attractive, highly talented, AMAZING human being and good things will come to you. It's the law of attraction, you give out to the world what you put into your heart.

And that's fact!